I wonder how many of you read your old entries? I will admit I re-read mine often. I like to look at where I was the previous year, what was I thinking, what was I doing, what was important enough at that time to write about. Recently, I was looking back at my 100+1 facts that I created two years ago. I realized in just two years I have grown. That is one thing that I love about keeping a diary. I look back to see who I once was and admire who I am becoming. Most of the things that seemed important two years ago, no longer apply now. I decided to update my 100+1 list for 2005. 1. I have a job that I truly enjoy (just wish I made more $$$). 2. I�m still looking for other jobs even though I like mine. 3. 2 years ago, I said that I had never been in love. That was not the complete truth. I have loved J-mac for a long time, still do. It�s just that sometimes, I like to deny he had/has that control over me. 4. I wish the relationship between my sister and I was much stronger. 5. Same for my brother and me. 6. And my Dad 7. I wish my girl who is pregnant would just go ahead and tell me. 8. I don�t understand why she is trying to hide it from me. 9. I really don�t know who she thinks she is trying to fool. 10. I am sooo ready to settle down with one good man who worships me from head to toe and the ground that I walk on. 11. I still need to work on my credit situation (although, it is getting better). 12. I still suck at managing my money. 13. I borrowed $200 dollars from my Mom last month and have every intention on paying her back. 14. I don�t want to borrow any more money from my Mom this year. AT ALL! 15. I thank God that I have a Mom as wonderful and giving as mine. 16. I am still a procrastinator. 17. I spend many a days doing very little work and a whole lotta Internet surfing. 18. But I get my work done. 19. I want to be Dr. Pearl really, really badly. More so because I like the way it sounds and the prestige behind having a PhD. Oh and let�s not forget the money that will soon follow. 20. I tend to take on crack head tendencies when it comes to money. I can�t help that I am always looking for more and more and more. 21. I listen to AM talk radio. 22. And I like it. 23. I don�t let most of my friends know that I listen to AM let alone talk radio. 24. Most of my friends just would not understand. 25. I live a double life. 26. My work life and social life are near complete opposites. 27. I keep it real at work, but I do so with out using profanity and slang. 28. The people at work get a kick out of me. To them, I am young and urban and they are old(er) and suburban. 29. If my dentist would let me, I would have him pull all my teeth and just wear dentures forever. 30. Hey my grandfather did it when he was 23. 31. My teeth are a hassle and I am sick and tired of being in the dentist chair every three months for miscellaneous things. 32. I am participating in a research study for a vaccine against genital herpes. 33. The study will last about 2 years. 34. No, I do not have herpes and never have. Hence the reason that I was able to participate in the study. 35. By the completion of the study, I would have gotten over $500 dollars for participating. 36. It�s easy money and is for a good reason. 37. When I die, I want my organs donated (if possible) and my body used for research. 38. Do NOT stick me in the ground when I�m dead. I�m closterphobic (yes, even dead). 39. I worry about my oldest niece and little cousin who are both teens and seriously overweight. 40. My little cousin is about 5�4 and wears a size 20 and she is only in the 8th grade. 41. Her Mom is my aunt R who was just diagnosed with colon cancer. 42. On a good day, I am a size 14 other days I border between a 14/16 just depends on were I buy my pants. 43. I can lose 20lbs. and I will still be a 14 (just a slimmer 14). 44. I have been this size about 6 years now. 45. The likely hood of me really being smaller is not looking too good. 46. I have a shape like an hourglass. It�s just that I have a lot more sand in my hourglass. 47. I am thankful I am not shaped like my Mom (bless her shapeless body). 48. I have faked more orgasms than I care to admit to. 49. I have gotten more than my money�s worth from my toys. 50. Thank GOD for rechargeable batteries. 51. I found my Mom�s toy. 52. She needs a new one, BADLY. 53. As a kid, I used to hear my parents having sex. 54. I still shiver from the thought. 55. My Dad�s 3rd ex wife once told me that my Dad has trouble keeping an erection. 56. I asked her what the fuck made her think I needed to know that about my Dad. 57. I�m so glad they divorced. 58. She looks like one of those creatures from Planet of the Apes. 59. This list is taking longer than I had expected. 60. I Love Wal-Mart. 61. I HATE Wal-Mart. 62. I love Target. 63. If I have to go to Wal-Mart, I usually go super early in the morning to avoid the never ending long lines and the Ghetto Fabulous people that frequent the place. 64. Sometimes I wonder if the blogs that I read are a true reflection of the author. 65. I also wonder if people realize they contradict themselves in their diary. 66. I would never point such things out. 67. Neither diaries nor people are supposed to be perfect. 68. I really do have concern over some of the people I read about even though most of them I have never met. 69. I wonder why those people who have added me to their diary list or have moved away from diaryland, have not bothered to give me the passwords to their diary or told me where they blog at now. 70. Do I REALLY have to ask, Martha, Bleek, LadyGenesis, Ari, Darlin-Nella 71. Yes, I did just call ya�ll out. 72. Yes, that was my attempt at asking for the pw/new domain. 73. E-mail me the info (perty please) [email protected] 74. I wonder what makes people lock their diaries to begin with. 75. Rie is the only one (outside of the d-land homies) that knows I have an online diary. 76. She has never asked me much about it and I have made it clear that I do not plan on giving her access to my diary. 77. Although, I�m sure if she searched hard enough, she could find my diary. 78. I sometimes want to encourage Rie to keep a diary. 79. But that would mean telling her more about mine. 80. I have adult on set dyslexia. 81. I diagnosed myself. 82. I�m not sure if adult on-set dyslexia is a real condition. But I have it. 83. I often confuse b�s and p�s, know and now, were and wear (and other words that I just can�t think of now). I know what they mean, just use them in the wrong context at times. 84. I usually type up my entries in a Word document then transfer them to d-land. 85. I learned that early on when I lost some really good entries by the d-land black hole 86. I also type them in word because I have a short attention span and get distracted easily. Often it can take me 30 minutes or up to a day to type up an entry. 87. For example, I started this list yesterday morning. 88. I also do it because I have adult on set dyslexia and I can�t spell to save my life. 89. Don�t you just like the way adult on set dyslexia sounds? 90. I wonder if I can copyright that. 91. If so, Adult On-Set Dyslexia � Blackpearl1 92. I have almost all 300 of my entries saved to a disk or hard drive. 93. One day I will print them out and create a book. 94. Maybe when I stop blogging. 95. If that ever happens. 96. I have noticed that I am not the only that has matured over the years. 97. This list is a lot different from my first one. 98. Change and growth are good things though, right? 99. If I am still around in two years, I will do another one. 100. I will be 27 then. 101. Damn, I�m getting old.
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