This time next week....
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This time next week, he will be in my arms. I�m hoping that my expectations won�t be more than he or I can handle. I�m hoping that our distance apart over the last year, won�t prove to be a detriment to this �thing� we have going on. Things between me and J-mac have been really, really good lately. Of course the only time spent together is via our sprint cell phones. So I guess you could say we have a great phone relationship. We have talked more on the phone in the last few weeks than we ever have. In the past I would be lucky to get 10 minutes of uninterrupted phone time with J-mac. Over the last few weeks our phone convos have been more than an hour. And the boy gets a kick out of calling me at 4:30 in the morning (his time 7:30) just to wish me a good day. Normally I would hate to be interrupted during my precious sleep time. But when I hear Alicia Keys "Falling" (that�s the ring tone I have set for J-mac) playing I know that its my high yellow sweetie calling (I know I have no business calling anyone high yellow, but when your ass is yellowier than me�I can do that. LOL) to wish me good morning. I am trying so hard to get control over these feelings. I hate the way my mind is being consumed by J-mac. A (very) small part of me hopes that his visit is bad. That way I can move on. If the visit is good, then we have the daunting task of trying to figure out our next move. I am not down for a long distance relationship. There is no way in hell I�m leaving my job to move back to butt ass cold Michigan and J-mac has about another year at his job before he can transfer. Maybe I�m jumping the gun a little bit. I guess I should just wait and see how things turn out. *Clue 1: Have you noticed that many of my recent entries have included J-mac.?? Take-two, this is just for you: Awww I feel sooooo special. I had a whole entry just for me (picture me grinning from ear to ear). Sorry but ya gotta wait one more week for all the juicy details about me and J-mac and the visit. But thanks a bunch for the advice. And I�m still trying to get caught up on your life too. I wish I just had one day to sit down and read all my buddies archives. Man this shit is so addicting. |
3:32 p.m. || October 23, 2003 |
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