Friends, how many of us have them?
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I don�t ask for much from my friendships. All I ask for is to be treated with respect and shown a little love from time to time. I don�t think it�s unreasonable. After all, I am more than willing to give what I ask for in return. I mentioned that my bud Tiff and I had some beef last weekend. But what I forgot to mention is that she called me last Wednesday asking if I was going to Arco Arena to watch the Kings game. I was still a little peeved at the words that were exchanged but I was trying to let it go. I told Tiff that I was going to the game and that she could meet me up there if she wanted to go. We meet at the game and saved seats for the rest of our crew (we had a whole row of folks). I purposely made sure that Tiff was 4 seats away from me. Like I said, I�m still a little bitter and hurt by the words that came out of her mouth from the previous Saturday. I was indeed trying to put them behind me but it takes time for wounds to heal and the last thing I wanted to add was a little more salt to the open wounds. So I made sure I put a little distance between us. The distance between us worked out good. We left the Arena a little sad but our friendship was still holding on. After I bought my car on Thursday, I was scared to death to tell Tiff that I bought a car. Why??? Because I knew her reaction would not be one of support or excitement. My prediction was right on. Tiff called me Friday night to ask what I was doing. After a short conversation, I mentioned that I bought a new car. Her response �Oh�. Yep that was it. There was a long pause before she asked what I did with my old car. Then she asked what kind of car I got. Then she told me that she would call me back later. I was hurt. She was not happy for me. She was not excited. She did not care. Once again, I questioned our friendship and how genuine she is. Whenever something good happens for her, I am always showing my support and letting her know how proud I am of her. It hurts deeper than I could ever explain when I don�t get that same support in return. I really don�t know what to do about this �friendship�. My mom says its jealousy. For a long time I did not believe that. Although Tiff may not be were I am, she has a lot to be proud of. I�m proud of her. She is doing an awesome job raising her daughter on her own. She is able to handle more than I think I would have ever been able to do if I was in her shoes. At times, I feel a little competition from Tiff. But I�m not big on competition, at least not when it comes to my friends. I�m just trying to figure out how to maintain a friendship with someone who is so un-supportive and unpredictable. How do you maintain a friendship with someone who may even be slightly jealous of you?? And why should I even bother to try to hold on to this friendship?? |
12:25 p.m. || May 25, 2004 |
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