a few confessions
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I confess that yesterday my (clearing throat) �girl� was so swollen (my girl aint used to three days of sex in a row anymore) that I had to wear a pad instead of the typical tampon. I HATE wearing pads because that means you actually have to wear real underwear too. Yuck! I confess that even though I try to pretend to be a hard ass, I am really an emotional person. I just try to cover up my soft side with the quick wit, stubbornness and overbearing personality. It works pretty well for a while until the uncontrollable hormones kick in and make you look like a crying fool. I spent about an hour yesterday crying my eyes out in front of B. I wish I could tell you why. So far the only good excuse that I could come up with was because I wasn�t ready to leave him yet. It sounded much better yesterday. The real truth is, I like the boy A LOT and I�m scared that the weekend fun we had is over. He claims that he really likes me. He says this is the most fun he has with a girl. He says he wants to see me more. He treats me like a fucking queen. So what�s the problem??? I guess over the weekend I got a lot of mixed signals. One day he�s telling me how much he likes me, what a good women I am, how hard it is for him to believe that I have not been scoped up by some guy yet, yadda, yadda, yadda. Then the next day he�s asking me if I see a future with him. When I say yes, he tells me that he doesn�t want a long distance relationship. He�s not even sure if he is ready to settle down yet. All that registers in my brain that I better not get to comfortable with B. Before I get all teary eyed again, I�m gonna end the today�s confession here. |
11:21 a.m. || March 10, 2004 |
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