Pride to often gets in the way
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Remember Tiff??? The whole summer has passed and we have not spoken. A few weeks after that incident she called me a few times. Most of the time I avoided her phone call. A few times I answered her call only to say that I was busy or out of town and that I would return her call just as soon as I could. There was some truth in the excuses I gave her. She called me at work a few times when I was really busy. She called me when I was visiting B. But I never really bothered to return her calls or messages. My feelings were still hurt and I wasn�t sure how to get over the hurt feeling and move on with the friendship. I just needed a little more time to let all the simmering dissipate. Tiff, I guess works a little differently. And I�m sure me not returning her calls hurt her feelings. Hurt her enough to call me on my cell phone one afternoon, go off on me and proceed to tell me she is never calling me again. After the ill ass message she left on my phone, I contemplated over and over if this friendship was really worth saving. Again, the message and words that came from her mouth hurt. I�m sure they were supposed to. She got her message across to me loud and clear and I didn�t bother ever calling her to talk about the incident(again) or the foul message she left. It wasn�t worth it. I moved on but not completely. I still think about Tiff. A lot. I worry about her. I worry about her daughter. I miss our friendship. Even though it was not always perfect, we had our ups and downs, but I still love her. I still miss her. This morning I get to work, check my e-mail and got this from Tiff: Subject: ill friend---->A Hi, I just wanted to let you know that A is in the hospital. She is suffering from Cancer. I just got the news today. It's a rare cancer called la-mar-ia,.... I don't know. I hear that it is treatable. She still has to go through a little bit more testing to be sure that it is cancer. Please keep her in your prayers..... While visiting today she asked about you. If you want to go and visit she's at Mercy General downtown on J st. for the time-being her room number is ###A. They're planning on moving her to another room. The hospital phone # is 453-#### If you decide to call ask for A S.
Please don't email me back........or call either............bye Obviously my first instinct was to call Tiff and find out what was going on. But I re-read the e-mail over and over to make sure that indeed she was telling me not to call her or e-mail her back. I am not sure if I should just ignore her request and call her anyways or if I should go ahead and comply with her request. My heart says call. My pride says efff her. Maybe it�s time for me to step up and be the bigger person and put my pride aside. ** Update** Mia had a good question: �Who is A?� Tiff, A and I all went to high school together for a few years. A and Tiff are really good friends and have kept in touch over the years. A and I are really just friends through Tiff. A is a really cool person though. She is a sweetheart and fun to hang out with. She is one of the girls that helped celebrate my B-day with me last year. |
8:32 a.m. || September 15, 2004 |
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