the return {not a re-run}
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Okay, so I stayed away for all of 19 days. I have issues with commitments and I was going through writing withdrawals or maybe it�s the attention from all of you that I miss. I am still writing (sparingly) but it�s just for me. It feels good to get the heavy things off my chest with out feeling like I have to protect my relationship and myself or make myself appear more wonderful than I really am. For now, I will continue to write for me. But on days like today when I feel like a lighter version of me, I will utilize this space. Speaking of lighter version, not much has changed in the weight category. I have lost about 5 lbs. But it fluctuates. I think I have lost a few inches. Some of my jeans are fitting looser in the waist and I actually needed a belt this weekend. Since the beginning of the year, I have been going to the gym on average 3-4 times a week. My goal is 4 times a week and most weeks I meet or exceed my goal. Last week was a bad week. I just was not in the mood for the gym and I avoided it until Saturday. I have been taking a body sculpting and abs attack class twice a week and a beginning step class and �on the ball� (all the exercises are used with the stability ball which is great for working the core muscles) class once a week. I have really gotten into the classes and truly enjoy them. I still work out on the elliptical and lift weights on days that I don�t take a class. I even got Tiff going to the gym. On Fridays after work we meet at the gym closer to her house for the ab class and beginning step class. It�s fun having a chubby buddy to work out with. Now I just need to work on my eating habits. They are not bad but I need to work on cutting out the caffeine (I love diet coke and coffee), drink more water and get more fiber into my diet. Over the weekend Mr. Man and I celebrated our One-year anniversary of meeting. Damn, can you believe it has been a year? Over the last few months, our relationship has been really rocky. On numerous occasions we were on the verge of breaking up. Monday, we had lunch at the restaurant were we had our first official/unofficial date one year ago. On the way to meet him (an hour and a half later then our scheduled time) I had made up my mind that I was going to call it quits with him. So much had changed since I first met him and now I question if he is truly what I want in my life. I have been working on my issues and making changes to accommodate him yet he feels he is to old to change and is not interested in even trying. Sorry, but that too old shit doesn�t work with me. That�s just a sorry ass excuse for saying �I�m perfect the way I am so take it or leave it�. And if that�s the case, I will bow out gracefully knowing I did what I could to make the relationship work. To make a really long story short, we are still together and this time, Mr. Man says he is committed to making things work. He promises that he will try to step up his romantic game and try to work on his timeliness and having respect for my time and make more time when it�s convenient for the both of us and not just for him. I think we can get past this hump if we both work on it. We were crazy about each other when we first met and we have let the spark fizzle in our relationship. Now we will work on trying to get it back. One last thing�. I hope that you have not forgotten that this is Black History month. This year my family/friends celebrated the occasion at my Mom�s house with a Black History and Soul Food event. It was great! Everyone brought a soul food dish and we all gave a short black history presentation. The best part was the kids who participated and did there little presentations. It was so cute and the best thing for them since they receive such limited information on Black History in school. A friend of mine asked me that evening what was the first HBCU? I actually had no idea. She was kind enough to look it up and sent the information so I thought I would share the wealth of knowledge. |
9:38 a.m. || February 22, 2006 |
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