He just can't stay away.
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I must be a damn interesting person. Bro. A can�t seem to stay away from my diary like he said he would. Maybe I�m jumping to conclusions. It�s possible that there is someone else that goes to UTK that reads my diary, but I doubt it. Besides I know that Bro. A usually gets to my page by doing a google search. (I could have sworn I put that tag on my page to make it impossible to find me through a google search) I checked my stats this morning and sure enough he came by, spent bout 15 minutes and went to 23 pages of my diary. Yo, Bro. A�why not sign the guestbook and let me know you came thru?? I don�t care that you read anymore (well maybe a little). You made it clear that I�m not the one for you so I�m moving on (your idea not mine). It hurts that our friendship basically took a nosedive and I really do miss talking to you and spending my workdays on messenger with you. But hurt runs deep (very deep). Sorry if I have been avoiding you, I just don�t know what to say to you anymore. We crossed that invisible friendship line into uncharted territory and now I�m just confused. But I still miss ya, handsome. A few days ago I was trying to kill the last 15 minutes I had in my workday so I decided to pop into a MSN chat room. A guy from Sac and I started chatting. We chatted longer than I had planned. He seemed cool and all so I gave him my cell number. He called me later that evening and convinced me to meet him up at the Starbucks near my house. Well actually it was my idea to meet at Starbucks. Seemed like a safe place. Here are the logistics on Big L (dude�s name): � He is 31 � Has 2 kids � Never married � Has a job, car, and his own spot. � He is ok looking (not gorgeous, but not butt ass ugly either) � Has an education (praise da lawd) � Good conversation. � Got a nice body. He�s 6�0 and has that football build that I just love Big L and I spent bout 2 hours that night at Starbuck just talking. It was nice. I don�t want to jump to any conclusions about Big L yet. Of course I don�t like to date men with kids. Just too much drama and that�s the last thing I need. Besides I feel guilty when men with kids are spending time with me and not their kids. I sometimes feel like I am occupying valuable time that should be spent with their children. I have not asked Big L much about his kids cause frankly I don�t give a rats ass. I guess I should be trying to figure out what kind of man he is, but right now I�m just looking forward to a free dinner and a movie. Sound shallow, right?? Oh well I told you before I�m a shallow person. And it�s been a good while since I been on a date. |
3:35 p.m. || October 16, 2003 |
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