I don't need loneliness anymore
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I�m not usually a needy person. I am the majority of the time a loner. I like shopping alone I like sleeping alone. I like going to the movies alone. I enjoy my ME time. I have been forced into the alone state. Having such previous bad luck with men, I got used to doing many things alone. Most of them I didn�t mind so much. After all, I learned that sometimes I am all the company that I really need. Lately however, I have been feeling like I need Mr. Man around. Last night around 8pm he said he was not coming over. I felt a little disappointment but assumed it was for the better since we had been together so much over the last few days. I did my normal nightly routine and climbed into bed around 9:30. My bed felt much bigger without him laying to my left. A few times I reached over only to feel the coolness of the bed rather than the warmth of his body. Around 10:30 last night, he called to tell me that he would be at my door in 5 minutes. Even though I was already asleep and tired I got excited just knowing I would get to spend another night with him. Later that night when I reached over to his side, he was there. I snuggled a little closer towards his warmth. The next few nights I will likely be alone. He will have his little one. I�m not really looking forward to being in my bed without him. I'm not looking foward to the loneliness. |
5:05 p.m. || March 30, 2005 |
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