You Can't Put Me On Lock Down!!!
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I decided not to lock my diary. If Bro. A or anyone else who reads can�t deal with what I have to say...then oh the fuck well. I�m not going to hide behind my own words, thoughts and feelings. Me and Bro. A had the �talk� last night. I hate it when I have all this shit in my head that I want to get out but when the time comes, I�m at a loss for words. The conversation was weird...I felt a little tension. My feelings are still a little hurt even though he did apologize. At first I didn�t think that he was going to apologize and that�s what I was kinda waiting for. I was hoping that he realized that he said some pretty hurtful things in the e-mail and that essential I was just saying how I felt in my entry. I was relieved when he did say that he was wrong for blowing up at me over the entry. He says he is not going to read my diary anymore. I want to believe him, but if it was me, I would keep reading and just not let him know about it. Oh well I�m gonna try not to worry bout the shit. I just want him to come out here and have a good time. I picked Rie up from the airport last night. She went to visit this dude that she met when we went to the Essence Music Festival. Obviously she did not hold to the pack of What Goes on in New Orleans, Stays in New Orleans...LOL. Rie and ol� dude been conversating on the phone ever since we have been back from out trip. Dude lives in Mississippi and invited Rie out there for a visit. So of course dude was all nice and sweet and affectionate the night that they met and was the same way on the phone. But Rie had me dying from laughter last night when she was telling me the "TRUTH" about him. I guess dude is mad controlling and was getting on Rie�s nerves. She said he was trying to control everything from how she made macaroni and cheese, an egg omelet and even the sex. Rie was telling me that dude is into the Muslim philosophy...even though he is not Muslim. She said that dude completely tried to skip over the fourplay and was ready to just go for the pussy. Rie said she had to educate dude real quick and once she did that the sex was good. But then later dude said that fourplay was some ol� white man shit. LMAO. I just about wrecked the car last night from laughing so hard when Rie told me he said that. I told her if fourplay is some white man shit...then give me a good white man that can rock my world!!! LOL Of course now all of my what if�s are surfacing again. Especially since Rie�s visit was such a disaster. I am just hoping Bro. A�s visit goes much better. I would hate for him to come out here and think he is going to control my ass. He will be in for the shock of his life. I really don�t think he is like that, but then again Rie didn�t think ol� dude was like that either. Somehow I forgot to mention my new toy that I picked up in New Orleans. The only white dick I will probably ever have. Of course I asked for a black one but they didn�t make them in black.. Hmmm I wonder why?? Maybe that theory of big black dicks?? I have always wanted a vibrator but was too scared to go to one of the sex stores here in town to pick one up. But my new bestfriend is WONDERFUL. Took me a while to really warm up to it...you know there is no fourplay with a vibrator. But it�s cool. Like I said before...I have to put a name to everything...including my new toy. He�s gone almost 2 months without a name. But I need a masculine ghetto name that I can easily scream out if I have too. Something like Jerome or Victor. But since Rie�s last vibrator was Victor, I can�t use that name and I�m not really fond of the name Jerome. So I need some help in naming my new baby. Any suggestions?? Oh just in case your curious bout my new toy...Click here...but don�t take a sneak peak at work if you got a nosey cubicle buddy lookin over your shoulders...I aint trying to get nobody fired. |
9:51 a.m. || August 27, 2003 |
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